The wonderings of Me, SpaggyB

first blog in a while... i finally have something to blog about...



A lot can happen in a short time... things can change... things can grow... things can die and things can even out to what they should have been all along. Other things are inevitable. Horrible, painful, unavoidable truths that are yet to come.



The most painful thing is knowing that it cant happen. Not even for the short time we have. There is little i wouldnt give, even just for those few months... I cant think of anything else. I only see the memories.

It hurts... no one has ever looked at me the way he did... it was so different to anything ive ever experienced... maybe i just havent experienced enough... maybe im right... maybe... maybe there's too many maybes in this situation, too many speculations, too many wonderings. Too many hopes, too many thoughts...



One thing i know for sure is im insanely selfish.

Im sorry...