The wonderings of Me, SpaggyB

First off can i just say... MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!

You know... it doesnt feel like Christmas... i mean the decs are up, the tree is standing tall and the various sized gifts are all wrapped and under it... but theres just no spirit for me... possibly because i was broke after moving to the city, and therefore unable to buy any gifts for my family and friends... sorry everyone =S
Anyway, Christmas is not what i wanted to write about... no no no... im gonna write about THE CITY!!! =D
Honestly one of the best choices i ever made =) I love it!
Okay, okay, okay... i live with my sister in one of the cities higher-class suburbs (AWESOME! THANKS GRANDPARENTS!!! =D) cheap rent, cheap food, close to the city its all good! The house is small, yes, but its cosy and familiar, although theres no awkward childhood memories, as we have made it our own pretty much =) im much more comfortable living in my grandmas house than i thought i would be... My room is all mine haha =P despite me saying i was going to keep it neat and organised, my stuff managed to get EVERYWHERE!! its epic =)
The one bad thing about my room is........................ i have no blinds XD and the sun comes up at 5-5:30... which is when my neighbour decides to have a shower as well... so not only do i have the hot and bright morning sun shining on my face, i can hear the people next door taking a shower... ah well thats city life for you =) i wouldnt have it any other way!!! (except i would like blinds....)
Ive started working =D In in the Deli over in Inglewood, which is on the other side of Perth lol XD which means it takes and hour to get there... first i have to catch a train from Shenton Park to Maylands, and then i have to walk for at least 20 minutes up hills and through the heat of whatever time of day it is, to get to coles... lets just say ive taken to wearing shorts more often XD also i dont mind the walking coz im losing weight!! =D ive lost a few kilos so far im feeling great =D although its gonna suck in winter coz ill have to catch two trains and a bus most days =( unless Global Warming kicks in double time.... which would also suck... anyway, work is pretty okay... never really liked the deli but meh its not that bad... one truly sucky thing is they screwed up my first pay!!! Instead of paying me for the full week off work, they paid me two days!! Becaaaaaaaaaaause, they changed my clock-on number and didnt tell me! LAME!! Ah well, at least im gonna get a massive pay on Wednesday =D but still..... i had plans for that money...
One of which is on Monday =D im seeing Brendan, and we were gonna, well... still gonna try to... go to the Dinosaurs Alive Exhibition at the museum!!! He really likes Dinosaurs and i like them too so its petty cool =) ill blog about it after we go lolage XD basically they are to-scale replicas of dinosaurs... which are motorised!!! AUDIO INCLUDED!!! Its got some awesome reviews as well im very excited =)
Oh yes, to more on Dinosaurs.... Brendan and I have adopted a Velociraptor, which he has named Viktor, and a Stegosaurus, which i named Joshua =) They live in Kings Park at the moment, but we are thinking we are gonna have to move Josh soon so he has fresh food... and Viktor roams Perth at night and eats the Homeless and the Douchbags of Perth =) we figured it was a pretty good deal haha! Which reminds me i have to check up on them when i get back... (in in Duns for Christmas... yay...)
Oh heres something exciting that happened in Perth!!! Andi, Lily and I (they are two of my good friends) met Patrick Wolf!!! And we talked to him!! For a long time!!! =D He's really nice and friendly and we were sooo stoked... but the best part is... HE PUT US ON HIS GUEST LIST!!!! He was to play in Capitol that night, but we couldnt go because it was an 18+ show... it turns out he hated that it was and he took our names and told out manager to put us on his private guest list!!!! ARGH!!! =D it was AWESOME!! Bad news is... Andi and Lily couldnt go =( i tried but stupid me forgot my passport!!! Im and IDIOT!! hahaha but still it was pretty epic just to be on his PRIVATE guest list!! =D im still stoked!! =D
Um Um Um... what else has happened... not much tbqh lol XD You know... one of the best things about living where i am, is walking to the top of the hill i live on each day, and looking out over the trees and roofs... and seeing Perth... in all its wonderful glory =) Truely an awesome city, i dont care what anyone else says... I LOVE PERTH!!!
Okay i want to tell you about Brendan now =) Obviously ive been spending time with him and its amazing =) hes amazing!! Hes so damn funny!!! Im truely blessed in having him =) Ive been over to his house a couple times (HE HAS A POOOOOOL!!!!!!) and hes spent a few nights at mine... we went to SubiFest together and then the movies =) Gah i miss him now =( cant see him til Sunday =( cant believe its been a month already hahahaha XD where did the month go?!?! =P

Okay well i guess thats about it... i just want to say that no matter how great the city is... i still remember and i still miss all my friends down south everyday =( MISS YOU GUYS!!!

xoxo em

Hmm... yeah okay i admit its such a cliche title XD XD haha call me sentimental ;)



Basically this is an update on my life =) Which is going just swell =D



First things first.



Last Saturday, the 28th of November, something amazing happened... Brendan James Hill became my official boyfriend =) aaaahahaha!!! I cannot even BEGIN to describe how magical and happy this makes me feel! ive known him for a couple months now. We met at party one night and went from there. I must admit we had a bit of a silent period, when things changed a lot for us both, but we reconnected and now... yeah =) The only thing was, he lives in Joondalup in Perth, and im still down in good old Dunsborough... LAME!! The good news though, comes a little later in this blog. Right now i just want to gush over him =)

Hes just great. Hes sweet and funny and witty and smart and sexy and a complete loser XD hes strong and protective and tough, though he has an emotional side, which i adore =) its not to easy to find that in men... He also has a very good taste in games ;) MORTAL KOMBAT FTW!! He just cant accept that i kick his arse =P

Oh wait... theres one bad thing about him... and i dont know how im gonna cope with it but its part of what i signed up for. And no matter how terrible and seemingly unforgivable this is, Im choosing to try for as long as im able... The thing is...

He thinks Xbox is better than PS3...

*shakes head slowly*

I admit, its going to be hard not to let this get to me, and im going to try my very hardest to save him from this thought, because PS3 obviously KILLS the Xbox. But the thing is, even with this flaw, i still like him =) it does very very very little to change the fact that he is awesome and im so glad that i met him =)

I often wonder if things would have turned out this way had i stayed ;) he should get that =D

Well, tomorrow i get to see him for the first time in months!!! =D honestly its been at least three months since we last hung out at the beach... =( and i miss him more than i thought i would... well anyway i get to see him tomorrow =) and i get to sing!! I told him on msn webcam one night that i had been dancing around the kitchen singing "I CANT WAIT TIL SAT-UR-DAY!!! I CANT WAIT TIL SAT-UR-DAY!!" and he told me he would like it much more when hes holding me and im singing "IM IN PERTH NOW IN THE ARMS OF MY BOOOOOOYFRIEND!!" i told him i would actually sing that... he told me he would hold me to it ;) Im totally going to call his bluff =D



Okay, onto the reason im seeing him tomorrow, and the other big news i have.

Tomorrow, im moving out of home to the city!!!! =D im moving in with my sister!!! ARGH IT FEELS SOOO GOOOOOOD!!!!!! Ive been waiting so long for this! I just finished school, and now im moving out =) you might be thinking "arnt you a little young and taking this a little to fast?" well no! Yes, im young, and yes it seems fast, but the faster im out the sooner my life can begin i say =) Ill start part time work, relax a little next year, then start looking into acting and theatre. Just getting out of this tiny little tourist trap is what i really need. I need to get away, to get a change of scene, a change of location, a change of life!! I cant wait to see my friends, my sister... my boyfriend ;) I cant wait to start work, to have my own real income, to pay bills, to cook my own dinner, to rely on myself... yeah i know it'll take a few weeks to get settled, and at first it might not seem that great, but honestly... i think this is exactly what i need. Life down here has become so unbearable... the limitations, the same thing over and over... at least in the city there will always be some unexplored crevice... down here ive seen everything so many times it makes me sick...

The bad thing is... im leaving so many people behind... my family, my friends, my co workers... my Internet... (thats right, i wont have the net for a couple of weeks *shock horror* but ill get it as soon as i can...) im going to miss all the people down here, and even though ill be down to visit occasionally, i'll always miss them.

Especially my newer friends... Jammeson for instance. I had a thing with his brother a couple months ago, which kinda collapsed after he was a complete douchbag. But even though things with me and him didnt work out, i made a great friend in Jammeson. Yeah, hes younger than me, but so? We skate and talk and joke and have a great time =) i kinda regret not getting to know him sooner, as we only started really talking a couple weeks ago...

Another new(er) friend is Josh. Man, im really, really going to miss Josh especially after january. I have a very, very strong feeling im never going to see him again... I tried to arrange to meet up with him before i left, but i guess he was too busy.... The thing with Josh is... well, i dont know what the thing with Josh is... im just going to miss him, so much. Josh, if you read this, i miss you, and i hope you find everything you're looking for in life and at the army... Im gonna miss your rhino face...

And i promise, if i make it, ill send you a post card xoxo

You probably think im being dramatic. Well, maybe i am, thats just who i am, which is why im gonna go for the theatre life. I dont really care if i am dramatic. Id rather be dramatic and say everything i want to say, than be whatever the oppisite to dramatic is and have a life of regrets.

That said i want to move on down my friends list.

Noah. I love you. Not in the "I love you so much, i always have, marry me" kind of way, but in the way someone loves someone who has nothing in common with them, except the mutual feelings towards Jess Shirley. You have always been more of a friend than i deserve, and though i know ill be seeing you again, i just want to make that clear. I also wish to remind you that we have a book to write. And im keeping the title whether you help to write it or not. No matter what happened between you two, it simply cannot be called anything else.

Sam, even though i doubt you will even read this, i want to thank you. I should have listened to you about Reuben, i should have valued your opinion more than i did, and im sorry. You have been nothing other than a good friend to me, and you helped to make my years 11 and 12 bearable. I know i wasnt the best friend at times, and im sorry for that, but i just want to wish you luck in Queensland, and in the rest of your life. Ill never forget you.

Ill never forget you either Bronwen. Yeah i know we werent too close, but you made maths and physics that much more interesting. Thankyou for that.

Simon... well what can i say XD i know for certian that ill be seeing you again, i just want to say thankyou. For everything. For always being there, for always being such a good friend, for accepting me so easliy, i hope you understand that ill always call you my brother. No matter what happens. I dont know if i ever told you this before, but that night at Jame's party, when i got totally hammered and ended up crying on your shoulder... you actually saved my life. I was on my way down to the beach to try and drown myself... you stopped me. I owe you for that. More than i could ever repay.

And finally... the one, the only... Pleb =) even the thought of you and your doofy face make me smile =) you will always be the Pleb to me, and i will never forget you. I really hope we stay connected after i move... after all, thats why you got a facebook account =D

I dont know why i just wrote all of that. I guess i just felt i had to let it all out. Maybe im taking this move a little too seriously, or maybe im just scared of losing the ones i hold dear to me. God knows ive already lost enough...



So now i must go. ill try to be back online as soon as i can. To every one of my friends... i love you. No matter what our history is, no matter how i know you, why i know you, whatever. I Love You All... and thankyou for being in my life <3>.



Emily <3



Ps. Natalie... NOOTS AND RAISINS!!!!!!! =D =D =D =D =D