The wonderings of Me, SpaggyB

Hmm... yeah okay i admit its such a cliche title XD XD haha call me sentimental ;)



Basically this is an update on my life =) Which is going just swell =D



First things first.



Last Saturday, the 28th of November, something amazing happened... Brendan James Hill became my official boyfriend =) aaaahahaha!!! I cannot even BEGIN to describe how magical and happy this makes me feel! ive known him for a couple months now. We met at party one night and went from there. I must admit we had a bit of a silent period, when things changed a lot for us both, but we reconnected and now... yeah =) The only thing was, he lives in Joondalup in Perth, and im still down in good old Dunsborough... LAME!! The good news though, comes a little later in this blog. Right now i just want to gush over him =)

Hes just great. Hes sweet and funny and witty and smart and sexy and a complete loser XD hes strong and protective and tough, though he has an emotional side, which i adore =) its not to easy to find that in men... He also has a very good taste in games ;) MORTAL KOMBAT FTW!! He just cant accept that i kick his arse =P

Oh wait... theres one bad thing about him... and i dont know how im gonna cope with it but its part of what i signed up for. And no matter how terrible and seemingly unforgivable this is, Im choosing to try for as long as im able... The thing is...

He thinks Xbox is better than PS3...

*shakes head slowly*

I admit, its going to be hard not to let this get to me, and im going to try my very hardest to save him from this thought, because PS3 obviously KILLS the Xbox. But the thing is, even with this flaw, i still like him =) it does very very very little to change the fact that he is awesome and im so glad that i met him =)

I often wonder if things would have turned out this way had i stayed ;) he should get that =D

Well, tomorrow i get to see him for the first time in months!!! =D honestly its been at least three months since we last hung out at the beach... =( and i miss him more than i thought i would... well anyway i get to see him tomorrow =) and i get to sing!! I told him on msn webcam one night that i had been dancing around the kitchen singing "I CANT WAIT TIL SAT-UR-DAY!!! I CANT WAIT TIL SAT-UR-DAY!!" and he told me he would like it much more when hes holding me and im singing "IM IN PERTH NOW IN THE ARMS OF MY BOOOOOOYFRIEND!!" i told him i would actually sing that... he told me he would hold me to it ;) Im totally going to call his bluff =D



Okay, onto the reason im seeing him tomorrow, and the other big news i have.

Tomorrow, im moving out of home to the city!!!! =D im moving in with my sister!!! ARGH IT FEELS SOOO GOOOOOOD!!!!!! Ive been waiting so long for this! I just finished school, and now im moving out =) you might be thinking "arnt you a little young and taking this a little to fast?" well no! Yes, im young, and yes it seems fast, but the faster im out the sooner my life can begin i say =) Ill start part time work, relax a little next year, then start looking into acting and theatre. Just getting out of this tiny little tourist trap is what i really need. I need to get away, to get a change of scene, a change of location, a change of life!! I cant wait to see my friends, my sister... my boyfriend ;) I cant wait to start work, to have my own real income, to pay bills, to cook my own dinner, to rely on myself... yeah i know it'll take a few weeks to get settled, and at first it might not seem that great, but honestly... i think this is exactly what i need. Life down here has become so unbearable... the limitations, the same thing over and over... at least in the city there will always be some unexplored crevice... down here ive seen everything so many times it makes me sick...

The bad thing is... im leaving so many people behind... my family, my friends, my co workers... my Internet... (thats right, i wont have the net for a couple of weeks *shock horror* but ill get it as soon as i can...) im going to miss all the people down here, and even though ill be down to visit occasionally, i'll always miss them.

Especially my newer friends... Jammeson for instance. I had a thing with his brother a couple months ago, which kinda collapsed after he was a complete douchbag. But even though things with me and him didnt work out, i made a great friend in Jammeson. Yeah, hes younger than me, but so? We skate and talk and joke and have a great time =) i kinda regret not getting to know him sooner, as we only started really talking a couple weeks ago...

Another new(er) friend is Josh. Man, im really, really going to miss Josh especially after january. I have a very, very strong feeling im never going to see him again... I tried to arrange to meet up with him before i left, but i guess he was too busy.... The thing with Josh is... well, i dont know what the thing with Josh is... im just going to miss him, so much. Josh, if you read this, i miss you, and i hope you find everything you're looking for in life and at the army... Im gonna miss your rhino face...

And i promise, if i make it, ill send you a post card xoxo

You probably think im being dramatic. Well, maybe i am, thats just who i am, which is why im gonna go for the theatre life. I dont really care if i am dramatic. Id rather be dramatic and say everything i want to say, than be whatever the oppisite to dramatic is and have a life of regrets.

That said i want to move on down my friends list.

Noah. I love you. Not in the "I love you so much, i always have, marry me" kind of way, but in the way someone loves someone who has nothing in common with them, except the mutual feelings towards Jess Shirley. You have always been more of a friend than i deserve, and though i know ill be seeing you again, i just want to make that clear. I also wish to remind you that we have a book to write. And im keeping the title whether you help to write it or not. No matter what happened between you two, it simply cannot be called anything else.

Sam, even though i doubt you will even read this, i want to thank you. I should have listened to you about Reuben, i should have valued your opinion more than i did, and im sorry. You have been nothing other than a good friend to me, and you helped to make my years 11 and 12 bearable. I know i wasnt the best friend at times, and im sorry for that, but i just want to wish you luck in Queensland, and in the rest of your life. Ill never forget you.

Ill never forget you either Bronwen. Yeah i know we werent too close, but you made maths and physics that much more interesting. Thankyou for that.

Simon... well what can i say XD i know for certian that ill be seeing you again, i just want to say thankyou. For everything. For always being there, for always being such a good friend, for accepting me so easliy, i hope you understand that ill always call you my brother. No matter what happens. I dont know if i ever told you this before, but that night at Jame's party, when i got totally hammered and ended up crying on your shoulder... you actually saved my life. I was on my way down to the beach to try and drown myself... you stopped me. I owe you for that. More than i could ever repay.

And finally... the one, the only... Pleb =) even the thought of you and your doofy face make me smile =) you will always be the Pleb to me, and i will never forget you. I really hope we stay connected after i move... after all, thats why you got a facebook account =D

I dont know why i just wrote all of that. I guess i just felt i had to let it all out. Maybe im taking this move a little too seriously, or maybe im just scared of losing the ones i hold dear to me. God knows ive already lost enough...



So now i must go. ill try to be back online as soon as i can. To every one of my friends... i love you. No matter what our history is, no matter how i know you, why i know you, whatever. I Love You All... and thankyou for being in my life <3>.



Emily <3



Ps. Natalie... NOOTS AND RAISINS!!!!!!! =D =D =D =D =D