The wonderings of Me, SpaggyB

Weekends are insightful things... apparently.

Spent a night with friends, hanging out, being idiots, the usual. Just being kids. We really don't have much time to be kids. Not enough by any ones standards. So kid it up while you can. Stay out late, spend all your money, laugh til you cry, cry til you laugh all of that. But play it safe. Always play it safe. Trust me with one thing, trust me with that.
The weekend is three hours from over for me. Not a cheery thought. But such is life. I'm not sure if I'm sad, or happy to see it gone though. Sad to farewell the fun times, and the major revelation that i awoke to at about three o'clock this morning. Happy to see the confusion that has riddled my life for the past few weeks slowly tick away with the clock. Somewhat angry to find that more confusion is slowly creeping in.
What is it that i want most in life?
Wait... no i know the answer to that. I have all along. Okay so...
Whats the thing i want most in life AFTER what i really want most in life?
(See what i mean about the confusion part? Too many convoluted questions and not enough simple answers...)
But then i guess that has a simple answer to. I want what I'm being denied. Isn't that what everyone wants though? They want what they cant have? I finally figured it out, and i finally worked up the courage to say something Ive been trying to deny out of either caution or stupidity ( i haven't decided yet), and then I'm denied it... but then, as i said before... such is life.